tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14801850.post114356800678898755..comments2023-10-11T08:01:51.636-05:00Comments on PIPEDREAMS: One more smile I fake and try my best to be gladMichaelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05974435902564570126noreply@blogger.comBlogger12125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14801850.post-1143650884075234872006-03-29T11:48:00.000-05:002006-03-29T11:48:00.000-05:00Act. Maybe I'll have that tattooed. Thanks for t...<B>Act.</B> Maybe I'll have that tattooed. Thanks for taking the time to share your thoughts and your story, leanangle. I can feel what you're saying. Maybe we're not so different in the end.Michaelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05974435902564570126noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14801850.post-1143611612705204002006-03-29T00:53:00.000-05:002006-03-29T00:53:00.000-05:00I am a lost Catholic, a breeder, straight, conserv...I am a lost Catholic, a breeder, straight, conservitive, the antithisis of you in some ways but I really like the way you write. There is a feeling behind the words. I find it calming.<BR/><BR/>A Navajo that is a Methodist minister told me that "conflict preceeds change" I have found it to be true in my life. For 35 years I floated so high I wondered when the botton was going to fall out. It did. The last five years have been for shit. I had to really rewire my outlook, challenge my spiritual position, accept the fact that 21 is gone, gone gone.<BR/><BR/>Then I was scared because what seemed to be within my control is not in my control at all, and it never was.<BR/><BR/>So I let it go - now I act as I have nothing to lose, I don't.<BR/><BR/>One day all of us shall take a dirt nap. If you want to act, act. The only other choice is to accept and many of those things we accept are unacceptable. Most unacceptable is the need to be accepted by someone else at your own expense. Act.leananglehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12875942400067608222noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14801850.post-1143597330729915852006-03-28T20:55:00.000-05:002006-03-28T20:55:00.000-05:00"Your personality and humour leaps off the screen,..."Your personality and humour leaps off the screen, and you're not afraid to share of yourself, which makes us care about you all that much more."<BR/><BR/>Andrew says it much better than I can - he's right.freakgirlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00774905190953855685noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14801850.post-1143590950832760382006-03-28T19:09:00.000-05:002006-03-28T19:09:00.000-05:00This is a pretty cool medium to connect with peopl...This is a pretty cool medium to connect with people, is it not? I mean, even if you never meet face-to-face you can still connect with other people. Sort like pen-pals, only more so.<BR/><BR/>Your personality and humour leaps off the screen, and you're not afraid to share of yourself, which makes us care about you all that much more. I'm glad this is an oasis for you.The Other Andrewhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12492925896131382172noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14801850.post-1143589724792104312006-03-28T18:48:00.000-05:002006-03-28T18:48:00.000-05:00Thanks, Bodhi. I don't feel ashamed either, it's ...Thanks, Bodhi. I don't feel ashamed either, it's just that I've trapped myself in a place where my business would collapse if people knew. A prison of my own design. But I'm busting out.<BR/><BR/>And good point, Andrew. What's worse, right? I have many, many moments of happiness in my life, but the undercurrent is sadness and isolation. It KILLS me to type that because it sounds so self-pitying, which I'm not. I know I have life by the ass with a wonderful family, good friends, great health and a means to a good living. I am taking baby steps, doing the last bit of readying to sell my house, taking care of licensing issues with moving to another state, etc. I need to kick it in the ass, though.<BR/><BR/>Honestly, I can't say how much I appreciate the words of encouragement. This lil' corner of the blog world has been a fucking OASIS for me over the last year or so. Or better, a lifeline. Have I mentioned I used to be a lifeguard? ;-)<BR/>Thank you, thank you, thank you.Michaelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05974435902564570126noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14801850.post-1143586997641845712006-03-28T18:03:00.000-05:002006-03-28T18:03:00.000-05:00Michael, we only want the best for you. Seriously...Michael, we only want the best for you. Seriously. Nothing ventured, nothing gained. Remember all those signs and sigils a while back? The ones that predicted change and change for the better? All you have to do is start the ball rolling.<BR/><BR/>Fear of being poor huh? What about fear of being unhappy?The Other Andrewhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12492925896131382172noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14801850.post-1143584687369372012006-03-28T17:24:00.000-05:002006-03-28T17:24:00.000-05:00I'm gay and proud. Its easy for me now to say as w...I'm gay and proud. Its easy for me now to say as well. Frankly, I don't give a damn how anyone else thinks or reacts to that. I make no apologies. I am completely comfortable and at ease with myself. I don't need your acceptance ... but I will take your love. <BR/><BR/>So what if it <I>only</I> took me 40 years. In the immortal words of Emmett Honeycutt, <I>my flame burns bright</I> :-)Bodhihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17263278478108070519noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14801850.post-1143581667831086942006-03-28T16:34:00.000-05:002006-03-28T16:34:00.000-05:00Ooh, some tough love. Y'all know how to do me rig...Ooh, some tough love. Y'all know how to do me right.Michaelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05974435902564570126noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14801850.post-1143578711407335832006-03-28T15:45:00.000-05:002006-03-28T15:45:00.000-05:00It's easy for me to say.I'm straight and proud. We...It's easy for me to say.<BR/><BR/>I'm straight and proud. Well, proud most of the time. Sometimes I'm downright embarassed on behalf of my people.freakgirlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00774905190953855685noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14801850.post-1143577919926111022006-03-28T15:31:00.000-05:002006-03-28T15:31:00.000-05:00UNAPOLOGETICALLY and OUT LOUD Sing it Sista! :-)<I>UNAPOLOGETICALLY and OUT LOUD</I> <BR/><BR/>Sing it Sista! <BR/><BR/>:-)Bodhihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17263278478108070519noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14801850.post-1143574572597361902006-03-28T14:36:00.000-05:002006-03-28T14:36:00.000-05:00Is this a fun blog?! ;-)I know what you say is tr...Is this a fun blog?! ;-)<BR/><BR/>I know what you say is true. I know it deep down. Knowing it and doing something about it are two different things.Michaelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05974435902564570126noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14801850.post-1143569692596109782006-03-28T13:14:00.000-05:002006-03-28T13:14:00.000-05:00At the risk of sounding too serious on a fun blog,...At the risk of sounding too serious on a fun blog, I fear that you will never truly feel satisfaction with your life until you can live it UNAPOLOGETICALLY and OUT LOUD.freakgirlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00774905190953855685noreply@blogger.com