Friday, February 09, 2007

Everybody wants the same thing

Be warned, this may devolve into one of my recurrent whines. Which is kinda funny, actually, because tonight I'm going to a wine tasting. A Big Gay Wine Tasting. These kind of events freak me out, not because I don't know anything much about wine (there are always plenty of folks eager to display their skillz), but because I put TOO MUCH THOUGHT into them. Remember how I'm bored and kinda lonely? I had cultivated a lovely group of friends, who, no surprise (actually, with one of them, it was a bit of a surprise...let's just say he's got a skeleton, only he's keeping it in my closet), all fell into marriage and breeding and now, credit to my lack of interest in PeeWee Hockey or who that little bitch Savannah left off her birthday party invite list, there's not much left to discuss. Anyway, I know that I need to meet new people. My people people. So go meet them, right? I'm not looking to move in with some dude tonight and, like, adopt a dog together from the shelter on the way home. Intellectually, I know this, but emotionally I'm tense and then conversation is forced and stilted and....ughhh! But I'm going.

Thinking it'd take the edge off, I came within a hair's breadth of scheduling some spa treatment for this afternoon (maybe that back exfoliating/wrap thing I've been dreaming about)(now that the fungus is no longer amongus), but glory be I've been hemorrhaging money lately, so I think I'll workout and then grab my book and find some cozy nook in a coffee shop (preferably with a fireplace) instead. I will dash into the salon for the Aveda re-stock (Control Paste, Hand Relief and Lip Saver), but that's it!

I should just RELAX, right? The wine tasting benefits a good cause (ARC Ohio) and who knows, maybe I'll bump into a queer or hag at the buffet and we'll both be humming showtunes. Heh. What are the odds of that?

13 comments:

freakgirl said...

You'll have a lovely time. Just calm down.

Also, until I clicked on the link, I didn't think "Hand Relief" was the name of a real product.

Michael said...

Is it a lotion or my modus operandi?
;-)

Michael said...

Now I'm looking at Lip Saver a little differently.

Michael said...

I'm enjoying the LUSH Lemony Flutter (cuticle butter), using it all over my hands at night, but it's too thick to have on all day long.

freakgirl said...

I put on that Lemony Flutter every night before bed. It's helped tremendously.

Moominmama said...

Nothing ventured, nothing gained. cliche' i know, but true. The fact is, to make meeting a show-tune humming hunk and adoptig a dog even a possibility you've got to get yourself out there. It might not happen, but if you sit at home, I garauntee it never will. Bye, bye! Have fun storming the castle!

Anonymous said...

Oh that was lovely Michael. You are so where i am at ::big hug::

Michael said...

Only I didn't go. And it's not just that I decided I was too tired. I WENT, and then didn't go. I worked out, did my spa restock, shopped the Banana, relaxed with my fab book in a cozy corner in a little coffee shop, had a bite to eat there....all kinda geared around going to that wine tasting. Then I got out, drove over, and drove by. I never used to be this way, but it's kinda snuck up on me over the last year or so. I think I might need meds.

Ummmm...but thanks for all the support!

Anonymous said...

I love you all the same. Keep going dear man xx

Anonymous said...

Like what she said. Yep.

The Other Andrew said...

Mikey I love you too! (I'm always late to the party.) I'm also about the tough love, so come on over here and let me slap you, m'kay? In a loving way. I understand where you were at though, I've had a crisis of confidence more than once and not gone to something I was looking forward to.

I hear Tom Judson was there.

Michael said...

If you have been moving too fast and trying to do too much, you could get a reality check today. Even if you were planning for this to be a social weekend filled with parties, you might not spend as much time relaxing as you thought. Serious issues are rising to the surface and if you tackle them head-on, you'll soon understand what's been holding you back.

The Other Andrew said...

He was there! He was there! He was there! He was there! He was there! He was there! He was there! He was there! He was so totally there!